i dun really care that im talkin to myself..i really dun..tis cn be like my diary..
anyways..life...it really suxs now...i hate my life so much now. i dun give a damn anymore.
i promised i wont ever complain anymore..yea..i tink im growing more white hair.
i realise i cant really sleep lately...just keep tinkin abt stuff...da past..mis it.
i was so jealous of everyone. being selfish tryin 2 keep kong, zhen, keshen, and da rest to myself. like one of them said..im annoying. so..i have to let go...no matter wat. even if it hurts me.
i used to actually text bubu..and call and everything. laz year..wen he was emo-in abt **** certain person..he always came 2 me and talk. and wen i had probs..i could talk to em. haiz. but now..its different. luckily imin da same class with em..hope things dun change.
same 4 kakashi..laz year..it was awesome..bein able to go out with em and dev..gave me a chance to meet em. really thnks 2 bubu, he was so funi. just got closer afta tat. from him i met kong. haahaa. always lepak at his house. and once wen he was emo afta his break..he oso..always talk to me..well..i felt so hapi that i could help him.:)
kong..hmm...suddenly so close 2 em? hahah.....i stil wonder how? but i dun care. he's been so nice and caring. i feel so lucky.always here 4 me. sick...==..as usual..people hug em..tink sick.. haiz..but tats wat we all luv abt kong.he became my koh..i nvr regretted tat...he brought so much new things and he made me hapi. he does wat's best for me. and i thank em 4 tat..=)
zhen..him...alot la. he was always pokin me and whackin my mangkuk. da calls..it was nicceeee. wen i cried..he knew how 2 make me smile..he was so close to my heart la. he really was. he understands girls..he listens..and tat's wat i luv abt em. kong oso da same. i cant explain zhen la..he's jz a great guy..tat keeps my smile. haha?
just everyone in my life la. sharmila naresha joelle ruth...nigel..dev..tommy...and alot more. relationships are changing. i cant stand it. my frens are just so important to me..i nvr wana lose dem.i love them all so much. carmen and chui yin 2! =)
but..no matter how far they go away from me..they will always remain in my memories and in my heart...but..i wish tat things will nvr change between us all..praying hard...
tats all for now..
im talkin 2 myself xD..byebye..
