Jenny was so happy about the house they had found. For once in her life 'twas on the right side of town. She unpacked her things with such great ease. As she watched her new curtains blow in the breeze. How wonderful it was to have her own room. School would be starting; she'd have friends over soon. There'd be sleep-overs, and parties; she was so happy It's just the way she wanted her life to be. On the first day of school, everything went great. She made new friends and even got a date! She thought, "I want to be popular and I'm going to be, Because I just got a date with the star of the team!" To be known in this school you had to have clout, And dating this guy would sure help her out. There was only one problem stopping her fate. Her parents had said she was too young to date. "Well I just won't tell them the entire truth. They won't know the difference; what's there to lose?" Jenny asked to stay with her friends that night. Her parents frowned but said, "All right." Excited, she got ready for the big event But as she rushed around like she had no sense, She began to feel guilty about all the lies, But what's a pizza, a party, and a moonlight ride? Well the pizza was good, and the party was great, But the moonlight ride would have to wait. For Dan was half drunk by this time. But he kissed her and said that he was just fine. Then the room filled with smoked and Dan took a puff. Jenny couldn't believe he was smoking that stuff. Now Dan was ready to ride to the point But only after he'd smoked another joint. They jumped in the car for the moonlight ride, Not thinking that he was too drunk to drive. They finally made it to the point at last, And Dan started trying to make a pass. A pass is not what Jenny wanted at all (and by a pass, I don't mean playing football.) "Perhaps my parents were right....maybe I am too young. Boy, how could I ever, ever be so dumb." With all of her might, she pushed Dan away: "Please take me home, I don't want to stay." Dan cranked up the engine and floored the gas. In a matter of seconds they were going too fast. As Dan drove on in a fit of wild anger, Jenny knew that her life was in danger. She begged and pleaded for him to slow down, But he just got faster as they neared the town. "Just let me get home! I'll confess that I lied. I really went out for a moonlight ride." Then all of a sudden, she saw a big flash. "Oh God, Please help us! We're going to crash!" She doesn't remember the force of impact. Just that everything all of a sudden went black. She felt someone remove her from the twisted rubble, And heard, "call an ambulance! These kids are in trouble! Voices she heard...a few words at best. But she knew there were two cars involved in the wreck. Then wondered to herself if Dan was all right, And if the people in the other car was alive. She awoke in the hospital to faces so sad. "You've been in a wreck and it looks pretty bad." These voices echoed inside her head, As they gently told her that Dan was dead. They said "Jenny, we've done all we can do. But it looks as if we'll lose you too." "But the people in the other car!?" Jenny cried. "We're sorry, Jenny, they also died." Jenny prayed, "God, forgive me for what I've done I only wanted to have just one night of fun." "Tell those people's family, I've made their lives dim, And wish I could return their families to them." "Tell Mom and Dad I'm sorry I lied, And that it's my fault so many have died. Oh, nurse, won't you please tell them that for me?" The nurse just stood there-she never agreed. But took Jenny's hand with tears in her eyes. And a few moments later Jenny died. A man asked the nurse, "Why didn't you do your best To bid that girl her one last request?" She looked at the man with eyes so sad. "Because the people in the other car were her mom and dad." This story is sad and unpleasant but true, So young people take heed, it could have been you.

I know i'm not a perfect friend,
You're broken heart, i've tried to mend.
Instead i made you hurt and cry,
Maybe i should say goodbye.
Would it be better for me to go?,
I asked you, and you said "No".
Why say no when i hurt you so bad,
But believe me,
you're not the only one that's sad.
I made my best friend hurt like mad,
If i left would you be glad?.
Deep in my heart,
I'll always know,
I'll love you always,
Even if i go!

I have learned that sometimes "sorry" is not enough. Sometimes you actually have to change.

Understand that no matter how many times you say you're sorry it wont wash away all the pain and hurt you caused and the tears you made me cry.

-K-

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back....

When we first talked to each other

I knew we would always be friends.

Our friendship has kept on growing

And I'll be here for you to the end.

You listen when I have a problem

And help dry the tears from my face.

You take away my sorrow

And put happiness in its place.

We can't forget the fun we've had

Laughing 'til our faces turn blue.

Talking of things only we find funny

People think we're insane-If they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying thanks

For catching me when I fall.

Thanks once again for being such a good friend

And being here with me through it all.

"If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile... But anytime you need a friend, It'll just wont be me."

"I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry."

~Nice Story~

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

-K-

" The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again. "

" You know somebody, and they cry for you.

They stay awake at night and dream of you.

I bet you never even know they do, but somebody's crying for you.”

" Remember me with smiles and laughs, for that's how I'll remember you.

If you can only remember me with sadness and tears, then don't remember me at all."

" I'll never says Good-Bye but only will says Nice to know you ... "

" My heart was taken by you, broken by you, and now it is in pieces because of you. "

"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else"

"If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go"

-K-

“Jealousy is nothing more than a fear of abandonment”

"Jealousy comes when a person that we care about , get closer to other person than us"

"Because of jealousy , i start to think that you are no more mine bcoz u got some other people that care bout u"

"Im happy with it , but do u really think im happy ?"

"Guys - always say that they don't care bout the girl they loved.. but u'll never know what they actually thinking"

"I will always love you .. "

"Because of jealousy , a person love to someone will become less"

"Because of jealousy , I will not always love you"

"Less n less n less n less till no more"

"Once there is no more love but full of jealousy , a person will feel dat he is no more needed by her "

"Thats the time where *Love turn to Hate* "

"When love turn to hate , there's no return"

"If we really have faith , i do hope that u can stay as my sis for ALAP"

"But i promise myself that if u got a person that really care for you then i'll leave u"

"Now i heard that u are in a realtionship with a guy , i wont mention his name here , but i don't like him ..."

"Maybe because of jelousy it turns me to become racist .. but since u like him so much .. wat to do ?"

"Just can hope u be happy , i'll never leave u if u have choose a chinese guy , but why choose him ?"

"Guy : Can i kiss you ? / Girl : Maybe on the cheek la.. i hate this most .. haha .. i jealous ?"

"There are sometime i do inlove with you , but there are sometime i dissapointed in u "

"Love? sister ? hahaaa.. all turns into jealousy n hate :,(..."

"I got a bad habit , whenever i dislike something i'll start to smoke.. haha"

"Since u rather be with him than stay single n get a chinese guy , i also rather smoke then keeping all this shit to myself"

"I do feel relax everytime i smoke ,....

"You said that im really important to you , but i never see how important im to you ?"

"Hahahaha , i dunno why i still can laugh ? hahahaha .... maybe its bcoz i no more inlove with u :D"

"Thats It.. I really no mood to continue write ... there are more i wanna say , but just cant type it .. "

"Best becomes Worst"

"Within this year 2010 , if i could ignore u after PMR till nexr year.. then i'll never be your friend anymore :D"

"Smile :) ..i actually should stop be ur fren since 2009.. this is wat i wanna do on 2008.. n i ignored u for few months"

"But , i have been told that , its not fair ... i ask why ? ***** say that i never give her much time "

"hahaha , i was like okk.. 1 more year ...until now i still feels the same way with her .. sometime i just could.nt stand her.."

"since u got many friends that care bout u , so i can stop wasting my time on u... "

"Not long ago , i texted ur bff for fews night .. talk bout u quite alot .. i told her that i really wanna give up on u"

"But she convince me not to do it , coz she knows that i'll really regret it , its true ... "

"but now , although i will really regret it , i'll still do it ... "

"Now u have alot friends that make u happy all the time when u sad , but there are some other people not as luck y as u "

"I decide that , i shud find those that not happy , 2010 aim ~ ditch the happy , cheer the moody :D"

"Because of you , i get close to ur BFF's Chui Yin n Carmen ... I feel that both of them are really nice "

"Although they are bit moody , but they do cheer me up when im not in d mood "

"Esp , Chui Yin , most of d night when im not happy , i'll text u ... u never ignore me , no matter how busy are u .. You will say that ur free :) .. n every message that we send to each other sure got ( haha , lol , hehe , xD , :) , :D ) , im really happy that i met you .. i noe u wont know bout this blog , i do hope that u will see this .. haha .. ty aloy Chui Yin ... Nice to meet u :D"

"Carmen , ur nice n sweet n also caring .. but i cant talk much bout u , coz i seldom talk to you n know not much bout u "

"Yys ~ a girl that make me most happy n also most trouble de ... haha .. "

I got nth to say d :D

Wish you n ~~~ be happy ...

"I Love You Triple C :D ~Chui Yin ~ Carmen ~ Carissa... "

be happy always xD.. haha .. hehe .. lol .. :).. :D

-K-

Love

You

Forever

And

Always"