iyoyo...koh...
im so confused la...people keep backstabbin one another nowadays..its like so weird. all da nice ones..i tote i could trust...deir being so...uughhh. fake.
A...she actually said im a backstabber...i like to talk bad abt ppl..get close to ppl oni 2 talk bad..say cant trust me..and im a b****....? wth? haiz.
n N...? she is my fren...damn close summore...all those tym we spend? were all those ntg. acc to da person who told me dat dey bs me...N..agree wif everythg A say.== n P...my gawd form 1 we were like damn freakin close. cz da other P go tel him dat all of us talk bad abt him...P n N...like don't trust me anymore. da P dat tell ppl those stuf..twist da storyy all da time la..i duno..or maybe P n N take it too seriously? its jz..i dun give a damn abt A? jz disapointed in N n P. n it hurts knowing ppl tink dat way abt me.
it hasnt been eazy since yeeting left..actually it hurts...so damn much. she was like..my everythg..n i didnt appreaciate her properly. haiz. da few days since she left..i was crying everyday..n nw..its been 2 months dy. bt it oni seems like yesterday..dat she was beside me..holdin my hand..tellin me nt to cry. every morning..i come up da stairs...i look up..hoping she's der! waiting for me..i noe i wrote this b4 many times..but i still do it EVERY-SINGLE-DAY.... nw...im closer to other ppl la...bt it aint da same.
same thing with u. pls noe..u reli were da closest guy to me k? da oni guy i text frm morning to night. yea..i got closer to zhen..den dev..nw shyam n kiren..i tink i was tryin to find sum1 as close to me as u. n yea...all of dem r super awesome..bt..dey missing stg...they jz werent u. i jz cant replace ppl la..same like yeeting.
rmbr..i use to annoy u wif bein emo and stuff...maybe i still annoy u..hahha..sori==. but..u noe y i did dat? n i smile wif others? it cuz..i get to be myself wif u...i oni gt to be myself wif carmen n chuiyin..i used to la..nw..like diff dy wif both of dem. so yea...maybe u x understaand..bt..u were truly like a bro..i cn trust..i cn be mad at.. dat tym u told me u gonna pindah? rmbr? i cried like crap da time i found out.
all those memories..jz came bak...sure...we mite nt be as close as last tym..bt we were da closest u noe? so thnk gawd u din move. abt ur bday..i reli reli believe u everytym..im sure u notice==..ahahha..so i aplogize..i owe u..all the time..nt oni cz of dat..bt for everythg u've done for me. so reli let me belanja u oor stg? ahahah.
i have so much to say..bt..i cant describe it. ow ow..since yeeting..left...i mean..i feel i nid to be more independant la u noe? so feel more open la. nt so emo all the time? lols. im fine=)
so thanks for everythg..i mis writing blogs like tis..yay..lols..ttfn kkb..tc;)
