dedicated to KKB

boy..i read da whole blog..and tears actually appeared in my eyes. gosh..kong is such a sweet guy. i really really feel so lucky to have met him. so here are some memories i shared with this whacko...=p..he mite nt read it anymore..but..deep down..i noe he still cares..i noe i do..care for him..^^

memories=) :

1. asking kong would he be my kai koh..lol..i noe i hv alot..but..he reli stands out frm da others la u noe? hahah.. still a great bro^^

2. have to thnk keshen for introducing him to me..haha..i rmbr one tiime in prakkash house..with prakkash n naresha..we played with buildin blocks..and all target him oni..kesian.=P

3. prakkash's bday..hahahahah..insulted me..call me pregnant..dumb dumb..he cut da cake..went crazy..lolx..watched fireworks for new year..awesome!

4. had a cny party..hahah..came with bubu..and my dog..loves kong wei! ahahhahahh.chased him everywhere. played snooker with em..and i think we won..lol..

5. alwayss go jalan jalan with em and my gang..lols..fun to have all 7 of us at da padang. rmbr gt one time he text me..wen i was right besided me..hahhahahahhah...got to lie on him for the first tym..soofffttt...hahhahah..

6. went to mimi bday..was sad at 1st..spend time with jo di..and kkb. he lied on my shoulder tis time..hahahah..spiky hair. felt so warm with em.+p...lol.

7.i like da times when he walks me out everyday..though he x like hugs..hahha..its really nice of him to do tat everyday..even if mafan him..==..lolx

8. i've fought with him several times this year..sad..its normally my fault..and i feel thankful dat he forgives me..

9..i like da way he texts. so stupid n funny. lol. one time in ipoh..it took us 18 msgs to say bye.hahahhaha..started honey dreams lemon dreams..hahah..nice one..

10..i fought with em once..n sharmilaa told em==...and..it was my fault...bt he did care..and text me durin ruth's bday. he is reli reli nice..i reli feel bad.

11.wen pavi..our whole gang..hahaha..heard dedy playeed with popcorn..=P...text em der too. hahhahah. it was nice doh..felt happy.

12..lantern walk...wen jln jln...ajak plip..hahahah..fun..sat on g=hill...so romantic..wanted to lie on his shoulder..hahhahah..bt..malu==...swt....n he smack my ass with a leaf..hahhaha..killing him soon..

13.oo oo..he smack my ass with his "damn wet shirt" hahhahahhah...funi funi..he hangs out with phil n tom more. he likes it...so im happy dat he is.. hahhaha.

14. stupid guy go prank prem n sheldon. cant stop laughin til now. so cute of him. hahhaha./stil wanted to kill him..hahah..

15.ying's party...he n bubu..nice..gt closer again..so damn happy..hahaha...den dnesh party..offered to drink for me chilli/beans...blleeeuukkk.hahhaha. so fun. ejek my sis alott..padan muke..lost da game to leesha. lols.

16. wen to jj..regreted bein sad. but soooo dammn thnkful he came and cared. lolx. still da best.

I REALLY NEVER REGRET HAVING HIM AS MY PET BRO...ALL I WANT WAS HIM TO BE HAPPY AND IM SORI FOR HURTIN HIM...ILOVE YOU KOH...NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS..:)

TC...WITH ALL U CAN..SMILE N BE HAPPY..~ CYYS

dedicated to a friend...

FRENS 4EVA, WRITTEN WIF A PEN, SEALED WIF A KISS,

IF U R MY FREN, PLS ANSWER TIS,

R WE FRENS OR R WE NT, U TOLD ME ONCE BT I 4GOT,

SO TEL ME NW N TEL ME TRUE, SO I CAN SAY IM HERE 4 U,

OF ALL DA PPL TAT I HV MET, UR DA ONES I WONT 4GET,

N IF I DIE B4 DEY DO, I'LL GO 2 HEAVEN N WAIT 4 U.

SO STAY MY FREN, N ALWAYS DO, SO I CAN SAY THX 2 U,

OUR FRENSHIP MUZ START, CZ U ALL WILL ALYWAYS B IN MY HEART!!!!! <3

tc..you're the best..

randomize man!!

hihi bloggggieeee! so long din write!! me so hyper n bored...so wat i do? luk at me pics...enjoy!!


group foto of dy gals da rock!!




trying to fit people in a swing...jadi wei!!




cny at me house baby!!! my lovely gang all in one pic..=)


nigel's cny...mis it..


gals and boys just wana have fun!



this is what we call as org gila being bored play wii..=)

♫♫♫♫♫ Iƒ ♫♫♫♫♫

Ω If I never met you , I wouldn't like you Ω
Ω If I didn't like you , I wouldn't love you Ω
Ω If I dudn't love you , I wouldn't miss you Ω
Ω But i did , I do and I always will Ω

Ω If loving you is wrong , then I don't want to be right ! Ω
Ω If loving you is a crime. I'd like to be jailedfor my whole life , in your heart Ω
Ω I love you. Like a fat kid loves Vanilla-Ice-Cream ! Ω

If you have 1000 years of age , i just want to have 999 years and 364 days
so i never have to live a day without you


7 words from da bottom of my heart to you



"Forever And Always, I Will Love You"

By - Leng Zai KKB ◘◘◘◘

thinking...o.0

well..im siting down alone..with the computer..like every other sunday..hahah. bored as usual. and suddenly i go to the blog which i used to share with some1..and there it was..2 comments..frm this person who clearly didnt wan me to noe who he or she was. dat person..those comments..wow..really a tight slap on my face! really..=(
he/she..said words that made me understand wat i have been doing wrong da whole time. it was my fault..i was just crazy finding ways to make my gang go back together..but actually. i din have to do anyting at all! all i did was just make things worst. i should have just let things be and hope things would turn out fine..=)
i should talk to thee people that i have been avoiding..haizz..da unknown person..yea..ur right.. there's this person that i miss terribly..i was just cruel and mean..you see? i learnt an imp. lesson frm tis persson. "loving some1 doesnt mean they gotto love you back"..meaningful words that pass my heart. i screwed up. i really did. all i can hope for is this person..is happy and smiling..i promised this person once..that i would smile and not be sad..im keeping it. i guess i was always avoiding this person was cause i din wan to accept da fact dat i was falling for him. i just couldnt talk to this person..it always made me nervous and shy. but..he's been a great fren..he taught me so much. i rmbr during april 1st..i played a prank on my frens.and he was der to make me smile. april 1st was the day that i realise..how great this guy was to me..how lucky am i to have met him. and where ever he is now..i hope he's smiling..cause..all i ever want is for him to be happy..=)
i surely learnt my lesson. looking at things positively cn really help! it dooes. im truelly lucky to have what i hv now. great frens..and wonderful family..and a lovely life. i should appreciiate all of them. i love them all deeply. one word describes this people that are in my life.."hapiness"
they surely made my life a pleasure...when i wanted to give up..they were there by my side to lift me off my feet and make sure i was alright..=D
you guys mean the world to me..though you cant read this..i really care for u all deeply..da sad gloomy gal inside me was finally awaken frm he sadness as a light of hapiness has stepped in her life again and again..the people that came in her life..are truely like angels sent frm above. thnk you so much. ^^
so i jz wana say to this person..this unknown person..thanks for showing me what i did wrong..you really made me realise how much my family and frens mean to me..thnk u...frm da bottom of my heart. who ever you are..im sure..ur a great pleasure..merci boucoup..=)

.....................

i dun really care that im talkin to myself..i really dun..tis cn be like my diary..

anyways..life...it really suxs now...i hate my life so much now. i dun give a damn anymore.

i promised i wont ever complain anymore..yea..i tink im growing more white hair.

i realise i cant really sleep lately...just keep tinkin abt stuff...da past..mis it.

i was so jealous of everyone. being selfish tryin 2 keep kong, zhen, keshen, and da rest to myself. like one of them said..im annoying. so..i have to let go...no matter wat. even if it hurts me.

i used to actually text bubu..and call and everything. laz year..wen he was emo-in abt **** certain person..he always came 2 me and talk. and wen i had probs..i could talk to em. haiz. but now..its different. luckily imin da same class with em..hope things dun change.

same 4 kakashi..laz year..it was awesome..bein able to go out with em and dev..gave me a chance to meet em. really thnks 2 bubu, he was so funi. just got closer afta tat. from him i met kong. haahaa. always lepak at his house. and once wen he was emo afta his break..he oso..always talk to me..well..i felt so hapi that i could help him.:)

kong..hmm...suddenly so close 2 em? hahah.....i stil wonder how? but i dun care. he's been so nice and caring. i feel so lucky.always here 4 me. sick...==..as usual..people hug em..tink sick.. haiz..but tats wat we all luv abt kong.he became my koh..i nvr regretted tat...he brought so much new things and he made me hapi. he does wat's best for me. and i thank em 4 tat..=)

zhen..him...alot la. he was always pokin me and whackin my mangkuk. da calls..it was nicceeee. wen i cried..he knew how 2 make me smile..he was so close to my heart la. he really was. he understands girls..he listens..and tat's wat i luv abt em. kong oso da same. i cant explain zhen la..he's jz a great guy..tat keeps my smile. haha?

just everyone in my life la. sharmila naresha joelle ruth...nigel..dev..tommy...and alot more. relationships are changing. i cant stand it. my frens are just so important to me..i nvr wana lose dem.i love them all so much. carmen and chui yin 2! =)

but..no matter how far they go away from me..they will always remain in my memories and in my heart...but..i wish tat things will nvr change between us all..praying hard...

tats all for now..

im talkin 2 myself xD..byebye..

a few reasons why i care so much about you..

1. you made me feel so safe and warm when you're around me.

2. you were by my side through da rough times when i was sad and down.

3.you made me feel like i was needed, even though no one wanted me here.

4. you were trying to act macho and cool when you were actuali lame.

5. you make me laugh out loud alot!

6. you weren't afraid to get hurt, as long as i was safe.

7. your caring face makes me feel so lucky that your here.

8. the fact that you are my friend and that you appeared in my life.

9. you made me realise im not useless.

10. just you being here with me..makes me smile. :)

i want you 2 noe, that i care so much about you. and if i ever hurt you. i am really sori. thanks for being here. i hope we can be frens for as long as we can. take care. =D

emo time:(

Hi all.... its me kkb here... im bored and emoing now .... haiz... today i felt so lonely without u...
i hope u were with me and chat with me all the time... every night we will chat with each other,
but tonight its totally different without u .... but i d0nt blame u f0r n0t being here 4 me coz
u went for the world stage thingy with ur frens... tonight - u and plip n0t here to talk to me:(
And today is Philip a.k.a Plip birthday, i wanted to wish him "happy birthday" but he just not here... Haiz... fought with michelle ... both w0nt get to be fren anymore...
Mei , i wan u to make me happy tonight but ur jst not here.... hope u enjoy the concert...
wat i wan is all my frens be happy but i kn0w it w0nt happen coz they fren with some1 that have bad influence and that person is me... i dunno wat to say la now.... jst feel damn sad now....
im really speechless now after thinking wat i had done to my frenz... i feel very sorry for michelle and carissa... both of u are my friend... i jst can't make u all happy.... I wish i never know both of you for my life.. maybe my life will be happier... i mean it ... u can hate me f0r this... but if I dunno them , i w0nt be here writing this blog... Anyway , i reallly fcking out of mood la... why when i need some1 with me , they jst n0t here T.T Haiz... i think thats all for today... and
"Happy Birthday" to Philip a.k.a Plip... Im very lucky to have all of you as my fren :) Tq

my dear bro...

dear mr kongy woonie pingy...hahaha.
hihi, didnt see you for a few hours ady miss you soo much koh. (see...im hapi)
eh, why are u so nice? seriously..i feel so guilty having u as my bro. i really do. i really love you so much la pingy.. you know wat, please dun ever do wat u did 2 mimi again. pls dont. 2 anyone. looking at those words that you said, koh, tears really rolled down my face. i can you care alot abt me, and always put me b4 anyone(sry if perasan), and you are so important to me. but, u should care abt da others too..i bet mimi damn sad la. promise me don't ever do this again. :) promise? you mean so much 2 me..and i nvr wana lose u, but u should bcuz of me, go hurt other ppl wor. kk?
haaaa....2day...damn funi la. da macha's ejek sharmila like hell wei. i think 1 of them like sharmila. i really do. whereever she go, some1 wil say : eee bleuk, socks! hahahah. scary la. like stalker. they actuali followed her and use their hand and block her wei. lucky she call out naresha name and when she came, dey all let go of sharmila. worried la, i hope 2day, she was ok. :)
hmm...yea lo, normal day lo. ntg special. but we got to talk 2 keshen alot. we spend time talking and asking each other abt each other. i know...we're all lame. haha. den keshen ask me whats his laz name, me and sharmila was like: uuh, carissa. u ask la, dun layan kesh. hahahah. kesian em. den u saw right? i conteng bubu's hand. hahah. i write bubu oni. den he ask me add more. so i conteng lyk hell. hah. padan muke. :P we talked about u 2. haha. everyone la. zhen, prakkash, naresha.
den we talk about ong, we laugh like shit wei. that was damn funi! you oso know right hee very shy with gals. so my fren, syamim, she tk tahan. cuz he always luk away when she say hi. so tham n ravern ask me and sharmila 2 say hi. but he still tk jawab! so, tham said:"hey lets ask elliza go flirt wif him.." btw, eliza very gila gal in my glas. so we went 2 elliza and ask her. she was laughin. so we went 2 sit down. den ravern said: elliza, now!!
elliza got up, she walk over to ong. like damn flirty wei. we laughin lyk hell ady. den she sat on ong's table, she fold her leg lyk tryin 2 luk sexy.. we all laughin till gona pee! goh even fell of da chair laughin!!! den she go touch em and was lyk: 'hiiiiii oonnnnggg!" and guess wat? he still luk away!!! omg!. we all were like...that proves it...he is gay. ahahahahahahhaha. XD
den lagi worst. tham!!! taadaaa. go act lyk gal, and sat on ong lap. den he face his butt and em and lyk, hey baby! u so sexy. we laugh lyk shit wei.!! den ravern go pull his pants up 2 show his sexy legs. hahahahaha!!!!!!. im tink i was gona die wei! haha..my class rocks la.
ahahahaha. damn nice la. and i even talk 2 jc. we all talkin abt swine flu. she oso wan skul 2 close down. den she talkin abt da skul so dumb la. damn funi wei. fadhil talkin crap 2 us. we were all lyk laughin lyk hell. and i feel so bad wei, his ball kena rampas cz of me and my classmate. boohoo. bt he say ok wor.
hahah...so funi la 2day! did anythg happe n in class? tell me if got. hehe.
that's all for now. buhbie!!!!!!!!!take care! ^^

Read this:)

I hope u will be happy after u read this:)
From now on , there's no need f0r you to be scared of im being taken by others...
Coz ..... Now...... You are D only sister i have :) ... Wanna know wat happen ? i will tell u
Okay, its like this.... when u ask me to read ur blog , i can guess that its sure something
bout friends and you ask me n0t to be angry at u and there sure soemthing bout me ...
After i read ur blog , i feel bad f0r breaking promise and never let you know that michelle
is my another sister.. im really sorry bout this:( since i regret bout it , i message michelle
and ask her that "can you d0nt be my sis?jst be my fren " so she replied ' if that's wat you wan, im ok with it' ... so i said ok... and wat i wanna tell you is im always here 4 u no matter wat ^^
So now... you are d only sis i have and i care bout u the most .. all i want from u is u always be happy... if u have any problems u can come to me .... and d0nt f0rget that my shoulder is only f0r you ^^ come to me anytime u needs me :D thats all for today.... i hope u happy after read this if n0t i also wont be happy ... enjoy it xD .... (kkb)... this if ur fav colour ^^

im annoying...

hihi.
.im bored again ............haha. emo time! sori.
i really dont know wats wrong with me la lately? i really duno who i am anymore. i look at all my frens and i tink..who are tis people? i really do. everyone is acting so strange now. they all arent da same anymore. same with me..i noe i oso change. haizz....=.="
kong..i noe tis is very annoying..but i really miss ojc so much la. sori. but 2day when i was sittin alone by da window..i looked at ur block..i saw..u, phil and shyam. u guys were laughing. and i rmbr me and him did da same when u all wen st. john camp. he was there for me. when i was sad. he made me laugh. i noe..u oso made me very hapi. all da nice times i had with em keep appearing in my mind..i just miss emm so much. at pavi, at padang, he was so sweet and nice. when i had probs wif u, he was da one help me gt back wif u. i owe em alot. but..i everytime wana say sori..bt he x give me a chance..i feel so useless la..
koh, im really sori im annoying u wif tis. i jz cant tahan it anymore...whenever i see em, i always forget we fight. i noe i can nvr be as close 2 em as laz time... he told me i was da closest gal 2 em b4, but i gues..i was jz dumb 2 feel so hapi..i..i..really wana give up.
i know i said i dun care anymore..but i do..deep down. i jz dun wan 2 lose anyone anymore...na wif pra, kesh wif da others. and sharmila still ok. ur other pet sis also slowly taking u away from me..and nw tis guy left me... i just feel like im not needed anymore...
i really feel like giving up.. i wana leave tis place la..i tink..u all will b more hapi if i do..sori..
tats all for now..take care...love u!...^^

Esp 4 CarissaYYs!!! (2)

~~ Tout je veux est tu vers etre heureuse avec votre vie,famillie,copain et tout tu avoir ~~
All i wan is you to be happy with ur lifes,family,friend and all u have

~~ Ne etre jaloux de quelque chose ou quelqu'un si facilement ~~
Don't be jealous of something or someone so easily

~~ Se rappeler cela je suis toujours ici pour tu non matiere que mai se passer vers tu et moi ~~
Remember that i'm always here for you no matter what may happen to you and me

~~ Je testament jamais oublier tout le gentil memoire nous avour tout ceci temps ~~
I will never forget all the sweet memories we had all this time


*Celas tout pour aujourd'hui , merci pour lecture elle :D bien que elle ennuyeux ...
*Thats all for today , thanks for reading it :D although its boring ... bye-bye ^^

Esp 4 CarissaYYs!!!

Halo!!! im bored and stupid :) me, 1st time write this kind of thing :( d0nt kn0w wat to write also ... Haiz... Since i share this blog with my sweet and caring sister, Carissa Yeoh Yew Shan (KLIA) no offence ar mei :) u ask me to write de ^^ hehe... I would like to talk something bout her ow.... She is ---- nice,lovely,caring,sweet,and loyal :! This wat i like bout her :) Errmm.. wat i d0nt like bout her is emotional,jealous of people(extreme fast de) and like to cry alot!!!!
Colour she like is blue which is same like me xD(i love this most) and she used to be very smart and nice in primary , now she is smarter and nicer .. hihi ... she treat all of her friend just like how she treat her family , but wat she get is scolding and hate by ppl :'(...
Now i would like to talk bout wat i regret of.... (really regret till i go bang wall )
Things i regret of :
1.fought with carissa for some small problems ... i ignored her f0r few days or maybe 1 week , err, cant really remember coz i wan to forget it .. happen twice or maybe more :(
2.receive present from carissa , i regret coz i din take care of the present properly ... I hope
will never get anything from her anymore ... coz i d0nt kn0w how to appreciate it :(
3.taking a new girl name michelle as my another sister... ( no offence if u c this) i promised
carissa that i will only have her as my sister but i just break the promise... :(
4.play basketball at TAR college with some frens... and i break my nose T.T haiz....
5.never spend time with my 8 years friend since we came to this secondary school SMKTM ..
HAIZ.... but im lucky both of us still "very friend" His name is Tommy Lim Ka Hui .....
Mei , u should know him ^^ hehe
Next is , Things that i never regret of :
*be carissa pet bro ( never ever will regret bout it )
*meet all my new frens and also old buddies ^^ such as ----- Boys-
tommy,philip,dev,chern,keshen,prakkash,kiernan,shyam,kiren,josiah,nicholas,prem,
tham,ravern,nigel,henry,christopher and ME^^ (kkb-kukubird) haha:).....
Girls- CarissaYYs,naresha,sharmila,ruth,ying,kalpana,tsu ning,sharlene,elaine,alya,sin yee,
stefanie,stephanie,sangitha,dilpreet,grace,michelle,joelle,yee ting(although d0nt really know her
but still take her as a fren ^^)... Chui Yin and Carmen too :) i hope we can be frens:)
and many more xD
*lend my shoulder to CarissaYYs !!! sorry ow, that day i smell coz just finish school xD...
( never ever will regret bout it ) tell me when u needs me (: always here 4 u :)
*being sick minded infront of my frens :D haha...d0nt regret coz we have fun ^^
*message cYYs when free and miss her :-D g0ing out eat with cYYs and some frens....
*everyday walk cYYs out after school... look at her till she get in da car ....
*for asking CarissaYYs to make this blog for me and share with me ^o^
*and writing this blog today although it takes me few hours to write it .... coz my eng sux :) Thats all for today , if i continue i will drop and die .... i know its boring...
Ok Mei , since i wrote this for u :) u have to write something bout u f0r me :) HEHE(up to u)
Wat i wan to say to my lovely Mei Mei is :
"""je t'aimerai,respecterai et honorrerai toujours,quoi qu'il advienne dans le futur"""
"""I will always love ,respect and honour u no matter what may happen in the future"""
P.s : Carmen , i put the meaning in english is especially 4 u:) .... Hope u enjoy it ^^
( if u read ) haha..

first time!

hihi!!
oh wow...this is my 1st 2nd blog. hahah. makes no sense. im so excited la. well, sharing this blog with kongy! so hope i will enjoy tis. weeee! take care! bye bye.
kong...you better write something here k? or else i kill you! hah. take care.^^